“I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn’t.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
There is no way for me to look at recent photos of Connor and not think of time. He is growing up so quickly, these last five years have been long ones with Corrigan, but with Connor it feels like I blinked and he went from a goofy sixth grader to a dapper young man. Seconds flat, I am serious.
Last weekend was his first Homecoming dance and when Corrigan was hospitalized earlier in the week, my very first thought was that I was going to miss yet another moment in Connor’s life because of a Urea Cycle Disorder. I’ve missed his 5th grade graduation, countless holidays and even his 16th birthday because of Citrullinemia, and I can never ever get those moments back. When it was clear that Corrigan was well enough to come home quickly, I felt so relieved that I would be there the day that he stood next to his beautiful girlfriend and attended his first “fancy” event.
I was never asked to Homecoming when I was in high school, so I don’t know if it was always this formal an occasion, but the kids looked great and I think they made some memories.
Didn’t they look great?
a minute ago he was this big…
As you can see, “serious” face has been his style for years and smiling “with teeth” is just not his thing.
Oh and Mr. Corrigan was not one to be left out of the “posing with pretty girls” stuff”. At one point, he stomped up the stairs and stole “A” from Connor and then posed with her himself. Cheeky monkey!
I am looking forward to more of these moments for Connor, it isn’t easy watching them grow up but it is what we are here to do as parents. We raise them as best we can and then stand back and watch them take on the world. Formal dances, relationships, graduation, college, marriage, children…and maybe, just maybe, a little sledding still.